Posted by: by surrender4love on September 4, 2008 @ 11:56 pm

Yesterday, I touched on feeling more accepting of my submissive side when I have creative freedom. I’ve given the subject a lot of thought since yesterday and have come to a personal conclusion.

At the core of what makes me who I am is creativity. Being creative has allowed me to fill the void of what I feel is missing inside of myself. There is a problem with that part of me now and I am trying to resolve it so that both my creative free spirit side and submissive side mesh.

For me using creativity has always been an outlet, whether it has been through dance, drama, art, literature or just plain crafting it has always been something that I just did whenever I wanted to. I never put my creativity on a schedule. If I was struck by inspiration at two in the morning then I got up and created. If I was in the throws of creating something and consumed by it then I’d go hours with no food or sleep because I was in the frenzy of creation.

Now though, I have a schedule and have seemed to have set creativity for myself aside and have tried to find ways in which to be creative for the benefit of Daddy and our family. And I do have plenty of inspiration from them but I have found that when I just sit down to draw or write it takes me a bit to get into the act of creating when it is not an act of service.

So, the question for me is: How do I retain my snazzy creative goodness while getting deeper into my submission?

~surrender4love

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Category: submissive journal