Posted by: by surrender4love on August 3, 2008 @ 10:36 pm

Now, I have been raped before. Unwilling, forced and being completely emotionally terrified has all happened to me before. Not during a scene and not with anyone that I would have wanted to do a scene like that with.

Last night, we did our first forced rape scene. He told me to fight him and I did. He was aggressive and overbearing, mean and just in the mind set of taking it; which he did. I gave him a hard time of it. With one hand I kept squirming out of the rope, using the strength of my legs to keep moving away and trying to force my legs together. Had we been in an area in which we could have gone all out the rape and fighting would have been much more violent.
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Posted by: by conquer4love on July 24, 2008 @ 8:49 pm

I have made it clear that I have a petgirl fetish. earlier today surrender4love ran across this girl-dog video and shared it with me so I figured I would share it with you

Grrrr.. fucking hot…

~~conquer4love~~

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Posted by: by conquer4love on July 13, 2008 @ 6:07 am

Rules, god I hate rules as they are only useful if they are truly enforced. Many BDSM relationships are filled with rules, checklists, questionnaires and contracts so people tend to be surprised when they find that in my dealing with surrender4love I have taken a more minimalistic approach to rules.

Rule #1 : My way may not be the best way, the fastest way or even the correct way but it is the only acceptable way.
Rule #2 : “No” is never an acceptable response to a command that is given.
Rule #3 : Do as I say.

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Posted by: by conquer4love on July 8, 2008 @ 3:31 am

Though many consider it a hard limit blood sport is something that surrender4love and I engage in from time to time. Needles, razors, a sharp pocket knife passed down from a loved one… for us this is not a limit it’s just another fetish.

I have never really understood why so many people consider blood sport a hard limit when there is such a substantial and thriving vamp subculture in even small urban areas today. Many people have been polite enough to point out (in not so polite ways) the issues concerning blood borne diseases to which I respond that we are both tested and are currently in a fluid monogamous relationship. If our relationship ever moves to not being fluids faithful then we will of course be much more cautious until we both have clean bills of health over a lengthy period of time.
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