As I got older, I let that curiosity and interest lead me to the internet where I found out that I wasn’t the only one out there who thought or felt this way. Being online let me explore more and share my ideas, feelings and needs with other like minded people. For the first time in my life, I finally felt less of an outsider because there were other females out there that were just as submissive as I learned that I was.

I first met BloodLustDaddy in an online chat room about a year and a half ago. At first we argued quite a bit over various issues that would come up in the room but we always came to terms, agreed to disagree and began to see each other as friends. When we first met, I was very adamant about my limits. I wanted nothing to do with polyamory, I wasn’t bi-curious at all and I didn’t see how our friendship could have ever developed into something more because he was already in a dedicated TPE.

When I look back at the person I was at that time, it makes me laugh a bit to find myself in my current situation. Right now, I am under consideration with Sir and Ma’am to become a member of their family. I’m still learning who I am in the realm of living an alternative lifestyle but I know that I have grown so much already under their guidance and I am looking forward to path before me.

So, I hope that you’ll join me in this journey here at SP as we share the laughter, the lessons and lives of three people coming together under the umbrella of a 24/7, real life D/s/s relationship.

-brat2Bbroken

She will be contributing articles to the site as well as going through the normal ‘learning and training’ that would be expected of anyone entering a new relationship.

brat2Bbroken has a deep interest in the lifestyle but has not had an opportunity to explore it as deep as she would like, working with her we hope to open her mind and emotions to what can be a very exciting though trap filled path to family.

As well as doing lifestyle articles she will be posting about how things are going, what she is experiencing and how she feels. We hope that this will act as a tool for others who might be entering into the same sort of situation.

For good or bad this is sure to be a learning experience for us all.

–BloodLustDaddy

Alberto Vargas, 1962

Being a submissive female, sometimes those things that as a woman you need to develop on your own gets tested when you become owned. Wanting to give yourself over to a Master/Daddy/Dom/Switch or whatever you call them is a need but it’s not something that you can do unless you spend the time getting to know who you are first.

So, what happens when you take your own self worth that took years cultivating and nurturing and put it all in someone else’s hands?

Honestly, you lose yourself but not in a bad way. Losing yourself in a consensual, long term TPE is not the same as a vanilla relationship. I do want to stress though, that there is one thing that is the same and that is you cannot expect your significant other to change who you are on the inside. You cannot expect someone else to “save” you or give you a sense of self worth if you never had one to begin with. You cannot expect someone else to stop you from being yourself.

One of my main issues as a submissive female is putting others before myself and it is often to my own detriment. I know I do it and with certain people I try not to let it happen as badly but in the end I will sacrifice taking care of myself in lieu of making sure others are cared for. In general I’ll just basically let myself become worn down. I feel selfish and guilty when I take anytime to do anything for myself and that has become more so the case since entering into a 24/7TPE.  I literally lose myself to other people and have a bad habit of letting that take over my self worth.

So, losing myself to others in general is not a healthy way to live. The difference is that with Daddy  losing myself to him  is healthy because under his control he will protect me from losing myself to other people. (Notice I said protect and not force. You cannot take an orange and force it to be an apple) He monitors me and those around me and pulls me in when he sees the need to do so. With Daddy, I have someone who will not change me but who will help me help myself. In essence, losing myself to him is more like being found than lost.

I lose myself to him because I choose to, because I trust in him as a Daddy and as a person.  I lose myself into his dominance, his protection, his nurturing and his love in wanting not just the best for himself but in him wanting the best for me as well.

~surrender4love~

With my lips,
I will kiss away the fears that have grown within you and the kiss away the tears that have never and will never be shed.

With my ears,
I will hear all of the words that you cannot always say and I will listen to you when you have no words at all.

With my arms,
I will hold you close to me for all of the times in your life that you should have been held but were not.

With my heart and soul,
I will love you just as you are and will love you who become through the years… just as you were always meant to be loved.

“mo anam chara, mo chroí”

Your babygirl,
surrender4love

Owl and Pussy Cat

Surrender4love looks up to me as daddy, mentor, tutor, master, provider and when she fails or does not do as requested of her then judge, juror and executioner of sorts. I have never been the sort of person to want a pre-trained submissive because my rules, desires and preferences are different than the person they may have learned from.

As her daddy I also act as her wise (not so old) owl to guide her and help her grow into a better and more structured person, to help her embrace her submission, creativity and free spirit.

She brings into my life the simple things that she falls in love with like the leaves as they change color, the rain on a summers day, the grass stains on the bottom of her feet and catching snowflakes on the tongue. As the provider I often do not notice these things in the rush to provide for the family and do what needs to be done… the little things in life that we should be enjoying get missed on a daily basis until I hear her little giggle or gasp of awe.

Like a good little babygirl she is always happy to see me, running up for hugs and kisses, speaking about things that excite her at 100 words a second and coming up just to randomly brush her hand against me for the physical contact.

It is easy to forget in a D/s relationship dynamic that everyone involved brings something important into the relationship just as everyone involved has to sacrifice to keep the relationship and family alive.

Surrender4love sacrifices in her choice to allow me to control her life, in following my decision that she work from home, in following my demands that the house be clean, in prepping dinner every night and waking the family during the day… she gives up parts of herself to ensure that others in the household are provided for on an emotional and spiritual level.

I work to provide roof and sustenance to the family, to ensure that our lights are on and the heat is paid. I analyze the direction we need to go and make sure that everyone is united towards the same goal. I do my best to make sure that babygirl does not forget to take time to be creative by writing and doing her artwork. I remind her when she is focusing so much on others that she begins to forget the things that are important to her.

Though this is a D/s relationship it is not, and will never be, a one sided relationship. She brings as much into the relationship as I do and sacrifices just as much as I do… we have a real world relationship that requires more than a “fuck me” dom dynamic.

I greatly value what she brings to the relationship because through her eyes (though she is the same age as I) I see the happy things in life and am able to smile at the sight of two small birds fighting over a large twig, things I would not have noticed if not for her.

She is sitting next to me right this moment and is starting to cry… that’s another important thing she brings in, the raw emotion fed by love and happiness.

~~BloodLustDaddy~~

Surprisingly, I am finding that I am feeling more accepting of my submissive side given the ideal of a little creative freedom. I am not sure why that is but I will look into the causes and such for tomorrow’s entry.

~~surrender4love

I was made an OP in the #domination_and_submission chat channel on Collarme.com and one of the first things I had to do was get a bot up and running to handle a lot of the manual work. This has been a very busy week between work, the channel and helping friends with personal issues. Please know that surrender4love and I are doing well.

Surrender4love has been going crazy this last week because of a lack of journal for her to write in, the easy way to resolve this is to have her post it on the site but she often journals about the mundane in day to day life that I am not sure would be of interest to anyone but me. I personally would love to have it all online but feel it would quickly out us if she started sharing information about friends and family as we are a fairly abnormal couple with an abnormal family and with even a little information someone that knows us would be able to link us to the site… this would hurt people that I have no want or reason to hurt, the innocent can not suffer for our attempt to be somewhat public about our lives.

I also do not wish to burden my girl with idle tasks such as writing parts here, copying it to paper and then finishing with the day to day that is only of interest to us. I see this is an issue that I must resolve soon as she is lost without her journal.

I will let you know how this is resolved.

I will post a “deep” article tomorrow night, tonight is just a thinking and sleeping night.

~~BloodLustDaddy~~

Let’s start off by taking a look at what a DaddyDom/baby girl relationship is NOT about.
It is not about incest
It is not about degradation
It is not about pedophilia
It is not about total psychological manipulation
It is not about slavery
It is not about sexual Freudian ideals

Now that above is out of the way, I am going to explain what being a in a DaddyDom/baby girl relationship is all about for me. I realize that everyone’s experience is different and I am not advocating what goes on in my relationship as being a standard in any way. I am just going over what personally works about this aspect of the lifestyle for me. You may agree and you may disagree, both of which you have the right to do. And as consenting adults in a lifestyle relationship what we do with ours is our right as well.

I am an adult woman, thirty-four years old who has retained my childlike enthusiasm and excitement over just about everything. I am also naive and gullible when it comes to the outside world. I am one of those people who want to believe the good in every one, which when added to my natural submissive nature puts me at risk with the outside world, social predators and other’s who have a stronger personality and temperament then I do. The bonus that I have going for me is that I am also smart enough to realize these things about myself and understand my own vulnerabilities. Unfortunately, I also have a tendency to be used, lied to and manipulated by predatory personality types; I often do not realize what is going on until events start to happen and I end up in situations that I won’t understand until after they have occurred. In short, I need to be protected and I know that.

Being a submissive, I have a drive to please and to put all other’s before myself. I strive to help people by serving them and fulfilling their needs in emotional, material and physical ways. I have a habit of doing these things to my own detriment. I give all that I can until I am a exhausted on all levels with no ability to stop myself from doing so. I need to be able to fulfill this drive in an environment that is safe, emotionally productive and physically healthy.

Now, I won’t go into the rest of what makes up my personality and how I work internally but suffice it to say that in all regards I need more than the standard aspect of a Dom, I need a DaddyDom and that is what and who BloodLustDaddy has become. Keep in mind though, that I did not realize that is what I needed until our relationship naturally went in that direction.

BloodLustDaddy is many things for me. He is the love of my life, my Dominant, my Master, the center of my world and he is my Daddy. He has total control of my life and he shapes my world as well as shapes me into a better person using my natural abilities. All my needs are met, expanded and developed by his control and his guidance. Because we do have a stable foundation of love, trust and respect I think that enables me to believe in him, even when I cannot believe in myself. I think an important part of him being my Daddy is that by shaping me as a person he takes great pride and joy in what I can accomplish. He pushes my limits and even though I do get scared, I have complete trust in him that what he does to me and for me is in my best interest and in the best interest of our relationship. I worship him as my provider, protector, lover and reveal in all that makes him who he is as a person both in our relationship and in the outside world. I defer to his guidance and his care and as such he has become my Daddy. And as Daddy’s baby girl I am more than a submissive woman, I am the center of his world and his heart.

Daddy’s love and dominance is both controlling and caring. He wants me to succeed because when I do so, then he succeeds as well. As his baby girl I am an extension of who he is, an outward reflection of his dominance and what that power he holds can do.

In a way, our D/s relationship is almost like an alternative version of a “traditional” 1950′s relationship with the added bonus of TPE and BDSM. In the fifties it wasn’t uncommon for the woman to call her husband her Daddy. The Daddy provided for her, cared for her and she was seen as an extension of him. The “little woman” at home was a direct product of what the Daddy, as a man could and should do in the terms of society at the time. Daddy was the problem solver, the fixer, the glue that held the family together against all odds and he was the punisher keeping his family in line and in working order. Daddy’s in society were very common until the sexual revolution. Also, just an interesting thing to note is that men in general were not depicted as bumbling idiots who couldn’t run a home or family until after the sexual revolution took place…just saying.

~surrender4love

The closing of many relationships can be avoided by focusing on what you do not want before you look for someone.

Before Daddy and I entered into our relationship, we had both spent many years learning about ourselves and being with people that we knew were not going to survive in a relationship with us. We each did this on our own and in separate relationships. We took the time and had learning experiences that were emotionally draining in some cases but the key is that we learned through our actions all the things that we accepted that we did not want. We did this in such a way that when we agreed to enter into a relationship we named off what it is that we did not want first before we even covered the things that we had figured out that we wanted.

~surrender4love

A squirting woman has full body rolling orgasms that rock her body, she is unable to control her reflexes, her body or even her mind. The beauty of a female after she has had a squirting orgasm is nothing short of amazing. The female mind during a squirting orgasm shuts down to where they take on an almost childish state of mind, unable to complete any but the most simple of sentences. This has been my goal with surrender4love for a couple months now and last weekend we finally achieved it.

It started on the “loverly” side with a lot of kissing and petting, an attempt to involve every sense as deeply into the experience as I could. After a lengthy loverly session we moved on to penetration with her on her back, hands pinned above her head and legs spread wide. We have a standing rule that surrender4love is not allowed to orgasm unless she asks and is give permission, in order to prevent her asking for permission my lips were pressed with force against hers. After a little while I released her arms and allowed her hands to roam my body.

Feeling her body shake as she held back the orgasm I became more forceful, not pausing for even a second in the thrusting. Continuing to ravage her body and feeling the tears of exertion roll down her cheeks from holding back the orgasm I finally released her lips and spoke the command “Cum for Daddy”.

The orgasm wracked her body, she gasped for air and went into uncontrollable shaking and sobbing fits, with a deep moan she exploded, warm fluids shooting from her pussy and drenching us both. She continued to twitch and wiggle in ecstasy for nearly thirty minutes, unable to speak anything beyond a basic word and mostly just giggles, in deep orgasm the entire time. After her orgasm a light touch or breath on her body brought her to the edge of orgasm again.

There is something really cute about a woman who has been fucked silly, truly silly as in unable to speak anything beyond a couple of words. And when those words are spoken there is such a childish enthusiasm that she almost seams like a child learning how to speak all over again.

I find this to be almost the golden chalice of dominance, the ability to take what was once a fragile girl and strip her fears and insecurities away leaving only sexuality, spirituality and acceptance. To be able to bring a submissive to the point of ecstasy and hold her there, to show her body the power of an unconstrained orgasm. This is the sign of a master, one who can not only master himself and control his submissive but to be able to control her body to the point where it belongs to him and his touch, where she has lost all control and he now controls her through the pleasure that he chooses to allow or deny.

Her submission has been absolute in the last week, after the experience that night she has been ready, willing and begging to submit to any desire I have no matter how odd or perverse. This is what I see should be the goal of every dominant, to bring their submissive beyond the “I serve because I am submissive” to the level of “I serve because my body aches”. You can not fight the body, only the mind and in this case she has shown her mind and body belong to me in all ways, when I touch her now I can see the ripples of remembered pleasure surge across her body and the ache for more filling her eyes.

The experience for me has been enormous, to know that I can take her to the point that no other man she has been with could That I can take her to the point where her body, from the top of her head to the tip of her toes is writhing in desire and a simple touch can again bring her to a spasming orgasm. To know that her thoughts will never again be on what another man would feel like because they are always on what I have made her feel like.

~~BloodLustDaddy~~