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The brat Speaks
This is the affectionately phrased “brat in the bedroom” speaking, otherwise known as brat2Bbroken. Sir and Ma’am thought that it would be a good idea to have my first post here at SP be more of an introduction instead of a regular topic post. They wanted me to give an introduction post first as a way for the regular readers of SP to get to know a little more about who I am and what my interests are when it comes to living an alternative lifestyle. From a young age, I developed an interest in sexual desires and had fantasies that many would consider to be taboo. My interests grew along with my sexual curiosity growing up and I began to practice tying myself up on a regular basis. I didn’t understand why I tied myself up but I did know that it made be feel better when I did it.
As I got older, I let that curiosity and interest lead me to the internet where I found out that I wasn’t the only one out there who thought or felt this way. Being online let me explore more and share my ideas, feelings and needs with other like minded people. For the first time in my life, I finally felt less of an outsider because there were other females out there that were just as submissive as I learned that I was.
I first met BloodLustDaddy in an online chat room about a year and a half ago. At first we argued quite a bit over various issues that would come up in the room but we always came to terms, agreed to disagree and began to see each other as friends. When we first met, I was very adamant about my limits. I wanted nothing to do with polyamory, I wasn’t bi-curious at all and I didn’t see how our friendship could have ever developed into something more because he was already in a dedicated TPE.
When I look back at the person I was at that time, it makes me laugh a bit to find myself in my current situation. Right now, I am under consideration with Sir and Ma’am to become a member of their family. I’m still learning who I am in the realm of living an alternative lifestyle but I know that I have grown so much already under their guidance and I am looking forward to path before me.
So, I hope that you’ll join me in this journey here at SP as we share the laughter, the lessons and lives of three people coming together under the umbrella of a 24/7, real life D/s/s relationship.
-brat2Bbroken
A brat in the bedroom.
The Social Perversion family has taken into consideration the neck of one brat2Bbroken (known to some others as Milk Chocolate), a 20 year old black female college student. She still has a lot to learn in life as well as a lot to do to convince us of her longterm worth as a member of the family.
She will be contributing articles to the site as well as going through the normal ‘learning and training’ that would be expected of anyone entering a new relationship.
brat2Bbroken has a deep interest in the lifestyle but has not had an opportunity to explore it as deep as she would like, working with her we hope to open her mind and emotions to what can be a very exciting though trap filled path to family.
As well as doing lifestyle articles she will be posting about how things are going, what she is experiencing and how she feels. We hope that this will act as a tool for others who might be entering into the same sort of situation.
For good or bad this is sure to be a learning experience for us all.
–BloodLustDaddy
Submissive Journal: Losing Yourself As a Submissive
Alberto Vargas, 1962
Being a submissive female, sometimes those things that as a woman you need to develop on your own gets tested when you become owned. Wanting to give yourself over to a Master/Daddy/Dom/Switch or whatever you call them is a need but it’s not something that you can do unless you spend the time getting to know who you are first.
So, what happens when you take your own self worth that took years cultivating and nurturing and put it all in someone else’s hands?
Honestly, you lose yourself but not in a bad way. Losing yourself in a consensual, long term TPE is not the same as a vanilla relationship. I do want to stress though, that there is one thing that is the same and that is you cannot expect your significant other to change who you are on the inside. You cannot expect someone else to “save” you or give you a sense of self worth if you never had one to begin with. You cannot expect someone else to stop you from being yourself.
One of my main issues as a submissive female is putting others before myself and it is often to my own detriment. I know I do it and with certain people I try not to let it happen as badly but in the end I will sacrifice taking care of myself in lieu of making sure others are cared for. In general I’ll just basically let myself become worn down. I feel selfish and guilty when I take anytime to do anything for myself and that has become more so the case since entering into a 24/7TPE. I literally lose myself to other people and have a bad habit of letting that take over my self worth.
So, losing myself to others in general is not a healthy way to live. The difference is that with Daddy losing myself to him is healthy because under his control he will protect me from losing myself to other people. (Notice I said protect and not force. You cannot take an orange and force it to be an apple) He monitors me and those around me and pulls me in when he sees the need to do so. With Daddy, I have someone who will not change me but who will help me help myself. In essence, losing myself to him is more like being found than lost.
I lose myself to him because I choose to, because I trust in him as a Daddy and as a person. I lose myself into his dominance, his protection, his nurturing and his love in wanting not just the best for himself but in him wanting the best for me as well.
~surrender4love~
The Owl and the Pussy Cat…
Owl and Pussy Cat
Surrender4love looks up to me as daddy, mentor, tutor, master, provider and when she fails or does not do as requested of her then judge, juror and executioner of sorts. I have never been the sort of person to want a pre-trained submissive because my rules, desires and preferences are different than the person they may have learned from.
As her daddy I also act as her wise (not so old) owl to guide her and help her grow into a better and more structured person, to help her embrace her submission, creativity and free spirit.
She brings into my life the simple things that she falls in love with like the leaves as they change color, the rain on a summers day, the grass stains on the bottom of her feet and catching snowflakes on the tongue. As the provider I often do not notice these things in the rush to provide for the family and do what needs to be done… the little things in life that we should be enjoying get missed on a daily basis until I hear her little giggle or gasp of awe.
Curing the submissive gene
A couple of days ago, I was browsing D/s related topics online and I came across the term usage of DSR. One would think that in learning that DSR stands for Dominate Submissive Relationship that there would follow a whole slew of information about D/s in the lifestyle but that was not the case. DSR is a scientific term used in the study of lab animals while developing new medications to cure mental disorders.
The scientific community feels that being dominate is a positive human trait while being submissive is not. They align being submissive alongside depression as a personality disorder that needs to be cured. One way in which they want to cure the “submissive gene” is through medication and what better way to develop a human medication directed at manipulating our brains than through the old standard of lab mice using only one form of basic testing.
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submissive journal: reaction to squirting
Daddy has control of me. His control reaches beyond my conscious mind and I will admit that is a little scary. However, I did not fully understand that level of control until he made me squirt and experience a full body orgasm.
What happened inside, what I felt is beyond words for me. I felt, yes. I felt more than I ever have in my life with my body exploding in different directions all at the same time. I couldn’t speak. I couldn’t think. I had no control over the movement of my body at all. I was in his complete control.
And all I can think of now…is to hope that I am enough of a good girl to do it again.
~surrender4love
submissive journal: On wanting a sister
This journal entry comes from Daddy wanting me to explain why I want a sister, meaning having a poly D/s relationship addition for the long term.
Three things that I have always been that will not be changing: Pagan, Poly and Submissive. Those are three cornerstones that make up my personality and my existence.
I was raised as a Pagan and I have never been anything else. Being Pagan, gives me the understanding that as women we are not as our modern society wants to create us to be. We are all beautiful and a part of the world just as we are a part of each other. Women can enhance one another, support one another in ways that men cannot. I see all women as being apart of one another; what I do not see is the need to be made or manipulated into being something that we are not. For example, women do not naturally look like Barbie and we should not be thrown (or throw ourselves) into some societal pseudo-competition in order to look that way. We are all different shapes, weights and colors and that in itself is truly beautiful. You don’t see an Oak tree getting all upset because a willow bends more in the wind because it’s thinner… modern female competition is unneeded, unnatural and unfounded.
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There’s a God with a whip!
Beltane by Sharyn Turner
No, I don’t mean that God. Set your minds lower to the dirtier, animalistic side of the spiritual; the Pagan side. My Horned God and all that is male centered with the universe as a whole comes to me through BloodLustDaddy. He is my physical male representative of the divine and it’s not all because he whips me. When I look at him and obey him, in a sense I am falling in line under the will of his spirit and in doing so, I honor my own spirit as well.
Our sexual and personality preferences are not something that we can detach. The same goes for our spirituality, it is not a detachable or an interchangeable aspect of who we are… it just simply is who we are.
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The requirement of spirituality….
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I think it is time I delve a bit deeper into what it is that makes our relationship so special. BDSM, D/s, M/s, Bondage, Pet Play, Blood Play, Bruises and ropes are just a small part of what makes our relationship so special. All of the above are fun in and of themselves but both of us are very “self aware”, our relationship is not just about blood, beatings and sex… its also about spirituality.
Many people are happy and content to just be slapped around and have a cock shoved down their throat, if this was the depth of my interests I live in a state where prostitution is completely legal and you can get any kink filled for the right amount of money. My life and relationship has a major focus on self-improvement and spirituality so the aggressive and violent stuff is just a bonus not the end goal.
We find the spirituality of BDSM to complement deeply our views on things like Green Living, Chakra Energy, Paganism (not Wiccan), Health Awareness and improving ourselves through understanding of our strengths and weaknesses. Anyone wishing to join in with us must be willing to look into themselves and be comfortable with what they find.
Keep reading to find out what sort of people are unacceptable for more than sexual play and why they are unacceptable…
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Living with an unreasonable man
BloodLustDaddy is opinionated, strong in his core values and unshakable in compromise. His way of life, is truly “My way or the highway”. His unreasonable nature is for me, one of the greatest things about him and what makes him an ideal Dom. He is made for dominance and he owns that aspect of himself.
Too many people skim over the surface of life being unsure of what they want. Not knowing who they are or where they stand on things; not so with BloodLustDaddy. I never have to worry about him not making a decision on anything. I never have to worry about him not allowing his dominance to be a part of everyday life. I never have to be put in the position of “toping from the bottom” in order to get through the day to day things of life; something that I have dealt with from men in past relationships.
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