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submissive journal: September 2nd 2008
I miss my journal. This past week has been really hard on me and without having the time to explore, express and then discuss things with Daddy… well, it had me feeling like a walking shadow when no direct contact was made.
I’m one of those people who needs a moment to separate what I am doing, such as cleaning or cooking or sewing and actually open my mind up not to what needs to be done but being able to just think about something other than what needs to be done. My day to day life revolves around what I need to do and what Daddy expects of me not what I want to do or what my thoughts are on certain things. Because my mind travels over things at a rapid pace, if I do not focus on what needs to be done then things do not get done and I end up in a spiral of jumping thoughts and actions.
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A week in the life…
Wow, it has been a crazy week and I do have to say that I am sorry for not updating.
I was made an OP in the #domination_and_submission chat channel on Collarme.com and one of the first things I had to do was get a bot up and running to handle a lot of the manual work. This has been a very busy week between work, the channel and helping friends with personal issues. Please know that surrender4love and I are doing well.
Surrender4love has been going crazy this last week because of a lack of journal for her to write in, the easy way to resolve this is to have her post it on the site but she often journals about the mundane in day to day life that I am not sure would be of interest to anyone but me. I personally would love to have it all online but feel it would quickly out us if she started sharing information about friends and family as we are a fairly abnormal couple with an abnormal family and with even a little information someone that knows us would be able to link us to the site… this would hurt people that I have no want or reason to hurt, the innocent can not suffer for our attempt to be somewhat public about our lives.
I also do not wish to burden my girl with idle tasks such as writing parts here, copying it to paper and then finishing with the day to day that is only of interest to us. I see this is an issue that I must resolve soon as she is lost without her journal.
I will let you know how this is resolved.
I will post a “deep” article tomorrow night, tonight is just a thinking and sleeping night.
~~conquer4love~~
DaddyDom: What it means for his baby girl
I think there are a lot of people who have misconceptions about the DaddyDom/baby girl concept of a relationship. I’ve noticed that even within the lifestyle community, many people look down on this aspect because they carry over the misconceptions from the vanilla world. Also, as with all human nature there is a tendency to attack what is not understood and I find that this goes on in any sub-culture social network just as it does with mainstream society.
Let’s start off by taking a look at what a DaddyDom/baby girl relationship is NOT about.
It is not about incest
It is not about degradation
It is not about pedophilia
It is not about total psychological manipulation
It is not about slavery
It is not about sexual Freudian ideals
Now that above is out of the way, I am going to explain what being a in a DaddyDom/baby girl relationship is all about for me. I realize that everyone’s experience is different and I am not advocating what goes on in my relationship as being a standard in any way. I am just going over what personally works about this aspect of the lifestyle for me. You may agree and you may disagree, both of which you have the right to do. And as consenting adults in a lifestyle relationship what we do with ours is our right as well.
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submissive journal: Interesting Dream
I had an interesting dream last night that Daddy wanted me to share. The dream started with a clearing of land surround by a pine forest. In the clearing there were a series of yurts connected together to form an extended honey comb type structure. These yurts were the rooms that made up our home. One was the kitchen; one was the dining room, living room and so on. The center yurt was the main bedroom that had a large bed in it, big enough to hold five adults.
Living there we had Daddy, me and three other women. We lived communally as sisters all under Daddy’s control. One woman was named Anna and she had blond hair, another woman had red hair and I do not remember her name, while the last woman had a rainbow type thing going on with her hair and it was like that because Daddy was making her grow it out and wouldn’t let her dye it anymore. We grew our own food, lived by a fresh water creek and had a small barn with a cow, pigs and chickens. We all worked together to live off the land and to live in harmony with the nature that surrounded us.
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08-18-2008 :: Musical Monday (One day late)
Not only is this a great song with a nice D/s M/s undertone the artist is just HOT!
“Johnny Feelgood” by “Liz Phair“, a sample of the lyrics:
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Knowing what you don’t want
Personally, I really believe that in order for anyone to find out what it is they want then they need to be able to know what it is that they do not want. Many of us in the lifestyle, as well as in the nilla world are on a constant search for that elusive person that will make us happy. We want things to fall into place upon meeting someone. Maybe, we start out online or over the phone with many hours invested in focusing on all the good qualities but I think that is part of the problem. We should focus on all qualities, not just the good ones.
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submissive journal: reaction to squirting
Daddy has control of me. His control reaches beyond my conscious mind and I will admit that is a little scary. However, I did not fully understand that level of control until he made me squirt and experience a full body orgasm.
What happened inside, what I felt is beyond words for me. I felt, yes. I felt more than I ever have in my life with my body exploding in different directions all at the same time. I couldn’t speak. I couldn’t think. I had no control over the movement of my body at all. I was in his complete control.
And all I can think of now…is to hope that I am enough of a good girl to do it again.
~surrender4love
Squirt (Not the soft drink)…
I had become obsessed with the idea of making surrender4love squirt. I find it to be hot as it is a total release with nothing hidden or held back. In order to make her squirt we have been doing a lot of work in the realm of energy and self acceptance. I have worked on the self esteem issues that have plagued her as a result of society. Society has been determining that women should all look like Barbie and any who don’t should be rejected. This type of rejection causes a fear in females that even if they do look like Barbie they are still never good enough.
A squirting woman has full body rolling orgasms that rock her body, she is unable to control her reflexes, her body or even her mind. The beauty of a female after she has had a squirting orgasm is nothing short of amazing. The female mind during a squirting orgasm shuts down to where they take on an almost childish state of mind, unable to complete any but the most simple of sentences. This has been my goal with surrender4love for a couple months now and last weekend we finally achieved it.
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submissive journal: On wanting a sister
This journal entry comes from Daddy wanting me to explain why I want a sister, meaning having a poly D/s relationship addition for the long term.
Three things that I have always been that will not be changing: Pagan, Poly and Submissive. Those are three cornerstones that make up my personality and my existence.
I was raised as a Pagan and I have never been anything else. Being Pagan, gives me the understanding that as women we are not as our modern society wants to create us to be. We are all beautiful and a part of the world just as we are a part of each other. Women can enhance one another, support one another in ways that men cannot. I see all women as being apart of one another; what I do not see is the need to be made or manipulated into being something that we are not. For example, women do not naturally look like Barbie and we should not be thrown (or throw ourselves) into some societal pseudo-competition in order to look that way. We are all different shapes, weights and colors and that in itself is truly beautiful. You don’t see an Oak tree getting all upset because a willow bends more in the wind because it’s thinner… modern female competition is unneeded, unnatural and unfounded.
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Evolution
I cannot pinpoint the exact moment that it happened. Our relationship did not just morph from Sir/girl to Daddy/baby girl over the course of an evening. The change was slow and I see it as a relationship evolution; something that we adapted to because we changed along with the change in dynamic.
If this had been a couple of years ago, I more than likely would have freaked out. I had preconceived notions of what a “DaddyDom” was. I was afraid what that might represent and I didn’t think at the time that I was capable of handling such a thing emotionally. Now, at this current stage… I can look back and see that my fears were unfounded.
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